Will I be Able to Write Again
Will I be able to write like - there's nothing that can stop me? Will I be able to write with the same vigor, the energy and the spirit of the bygone days? It's me who fails to give the words, the freedom they need. I am unable to give them the treatment they deserve from a writer like me, who should always be grateful to them.
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Words don't come to me like they did before. When I have free time (that I hardly have) I think of them, I wait for them, but they don't arrive. Although the time is 'free', my mind is not. When words come, they come like guests; I don't feel they are mine. They lack that feeling of belongingness. It feels as if neither they belong to my world,Christian Louboutin chaussures Daffodile 160mmLivraison gratuite pour vous, nor I belong to theirs.
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I want the words to come to me as if they have always wanted to. I have grown less critical now. I am ready to accept them the way they are. I promise I won't compel them to change for me. I promise I won't 'play' with them. Only I know how much I long for them. I feel so lonely with 'no words' to express myself. My thoughts, my imagination, my creativity,Christian Louboutin chaussures Lady Lynch 120mmvente pas cher, all of them need the means to portray themselves and only words can give them the means and meaning!
I want the words to return. I want them to come like they did before. I want them to help me write; I want them to awaken the writer in me and I want to write like never before. Will I be able to write again? 相关的主题文章：
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